To Write Or Not To Write

     So, it seems that I've taken a break from writing. I have spent the past month trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, and I believe that I've come to the conclusion, that I want to write. I got a little self conscious about posting my blogs because I've heard people say, "people who blog are only trying to get attention", or something to the like of it. The fact of the matter is, anyone who knows the real me, knows that I hate attention! I would rather hide in the back of a crowd any day of the week, rather than be thrust to the front of it.
     Truth be told, there are only a few things that I am passionate about in my life, first being God, my family, my pets, and writing. I love to write! I'm not content with just writing in a journal. I've spent the last several years journaling, and I find that its not as stimulating as I want it to be. Does that make sense? I guess, one way of explaining it would be to liken it to someone who loves to sing. Most people who love to sing have to get it out one way or another. A person who truly loves to sing, is not content with just singing in their mind or all closed up in a room where they can't be heard. They want to sing out loud. They want to be heard, whether they're heard by them self or by somebody else.
     For the last several years I've just been trying so hard to keep up with my family and the hectic pace of life, that I forgot what my dreams were. There was a point in time when all I wanted to do was write. Somewhere along the way, I lost my creativity. I think it was probably after I struck off to live my life without a plan of how I was actually going to live it. I guess when you don't map things out, you tend to get lost. And lost I got! I've been on the roller coaster ride of life and am now just finally getting to the point where I don't want to zoom through life anymore. I want to take my time and appreciate what God has blessed me with. I've always pushed ahead just to be able to make it to the next step, never really paying attention to where that next step was actually taking me. There was never any time for reflection. After spending the last few months just trying to catch my breath, I realized that I want to reflect! I want to stop and listen to the birds in the trees, spend time just watching my kids experience life, feel the raindrops on my face and not panic about the mess its going to make of my hair. Okay, I guess I'd better be honest, I don't think I've ever panicked about the mess my hair was going to be in because of the rain, but it sounded good anyway.
     So starting today, I'm going to try this blogging thing again, just so that I can at least start feeling like I'm going some where with my writing. I want to start experiencing things, and share those experiences in my writings. Whether you choose to read or not read, is up to you. But, at least I know that I'm finally doing what I love to do!