Where Do We Go From Here?

     Have you ever been at the end of a place in your life, when a turning point is on the horizon, and asking yourself, "where do I go from here"? Lately, I've been at that place in my life. I know that God has something in store for me, but I'm just not sure which way to turn. Saying goodbye to the old ways of life, can almost be like the death of a loved one. You find yourself feeling at a loss, not knowing which way to turn.

     How do we know which direction God is taking us? If anything, I've come to realize, that to wait on God is our only option. He will make it clear which direction we need to head in. Most times God's timing does not coincide with my timing. I do know, though, that His timing is always the perfect timing. My timing always bodes for trouble. Not waiting for God, is almost like being in a really important race, that you've spent months training for, and as you're waiting for the starter's pistol to announce the start of the race, you find you are so keyed up that you take off running before the gun goes off. You have now "jumped the gun" and all those months of training mean nothing, because you have been disqualified from the race. Its the same for those who jump the gun on God, it doesn't matter how much knowledge or training you've had, it all means nothing without God's blessing.

     I've been at this place in my life over the past several months, where I really want to be doing something great.  I'm tired of living a mediocre life. What, that great thing is, I have no clue. I do know, that whatever that great thing is, I want it to be blessed by God. I want the next steps in my life to glorify Him. I want the rest of the steps in my life to glorify Him. To be able to share His love and show it at the same time. I want people to be able to see Him in my eyes and my life.

     For so many years I have been quick with everything. Quick to start, quick to quit, quick tempered, quick to give up, quick to volunteer, and quick to make decisions.  I want to spend time finding out what He wants from me. Seeking only Him in my quest to do something great. I also have to realize that my idea of "great" and His idea of "great" are probably two totally different ideas. Knowing what you're suppose to be doing in life and actually doing it can often times lead to humbling experiences. But, that's okay, that's how we learn to lean on Him and let Him do the leading.

     Change is in the air, and I can almost taste it. I'm looking forward to starting the rest of my life and following His plan. Life will be so much more rewarding doing it God's way instead of mine.